Tripping in my Blahniks

The ceo in the grand sky
Took pity after my last high
Seizing and shaking
Finally forsaken
24 yrs old and barely awaken
Blacked out come to,
not sure of what I’d taken
Death wish to end this
The suffering is endless

Drinking for 2 years straight
Ready to call checkmate
must have sealed this fate

Drunk on gin & tonic
Tripping in my Blahniks
Acting histrionic
thinking I was iconic
Life is ironic and
the Universe is cosmic

Drank my way to unemployed
Future fucked and life destroyed
Using blow to fill that God-sized void

Plagued by my self doubt
Wondered how it would play out
An inevitable tragedy
Death was the reality
And then I found Recovery
God had a plan for me

Finding a higher love,
Shifting priorities
Changing loyalties
The truth became clear
Live in the possibilities

Working in a new tax bracket
They got me paying thirty-seven
When I was just a drug addict
Smoking dope in a deep depression
Racked up felonies for possession
Blind to my past transgressions
No remorse, no concessions

But i paid the price and it wasn't cheap
Deep-seated insecurities robbed me of sleep
no peace of mind for the sick and suffering
so many years later my hearts still recovering