Clockwork Magic

No this wasn’t my choice, My life aint my own voice.
Keeps draggin me along, “Put your mask on,
keep ur faith strong, never do nothin wrong.”

Got no room to breathe, got no way to leave.
Someone pump air in my chest, cuz I’m goin into cardiac arrest.
Put me in a cell, tie me in a leash,
treat me like hell, don’t practice what u preach.

and after all that abuse, u think my anger’ll diffuse?
by tomorrow I’ll be game, for the next round of pain?
No it don’t work like that, this shit u can never take back.

I won’t forgive you for the torture,
its gonna ride with me into my future.
But u walk around ignorant, no u never felt repentant.
You got no clue bout the shit I went thru, all becauseuv u.

But its something I’ll neva forget,
Cuz the past drew a silhouette,
that still hasn’t left.

I’m fightin hard to keep a smile on my face,
but inside, theres not even a trace.

Fate dealt me a shitty hand,
what I did to deserve it,
I dont understand.

Threw my cards out of plan,
took a risk on transit,
my one and only chance.

I’m losin my mind, its downhill from here.
I’m way out of line, but these words are sincere.
I got no outlet to feel anything but sorrow,
It’s a fucking struggle to plan for tomorrow.

Cuz I never know if I wanna stay 'round that long,
What would be the point of singin another sad song?
Nobody hears me when I’m violently screamin,
all alone in my car, with the tears streamin.
I’m beggin for help, maybe someone will see me,
if you couldn't tell, i'm in need of some healin.

But it always end the same exact way,
I dry up the tears, throw the tissues away,
drive back home, like everything’s okay.
but inside I’m darker, more isolated than ever,
i tell myself it’s over, this can’t go on forever.

But I'm a deceptive charm, a life so tragic,
just like a set alarm, it's clockwork magic.