Unholiest Heaven

the hackneyed cliches of a childhood past
haunt me now, with their shadows cast
they warned me of the pain youd bring
how youd slowly take away my everything
and throw me in a whirlwind of suffering

but with blinded eyes i chased the high
with a careless shame i said goodbye
to all the friends who asked me why
as i burned through my storm of lies

you're the object of my strongest desire
and the catalyst to my internal hellfire
i want help but i want you more
forever and always ill be yours

in your absence i'm a worthless fuck
but with your return, comes good luck
the pain i feel when youre not around
is easy to forget when you're found

the sagest advice couldn't tell me how
to quit your love and walk away now
do me a favor and turn off the lights
as i try to fight off my raging appetite

deep down i know that youre no good
and i'd leave you too if only i could
but you had me hooked at minute eleven
when i took a breath of the unholiest heaven

Struggle

to the rest of the world you're on your way
but behind closed doors you're falling astray
don't let the pain mess with your vision
its part of the test, make the right decision
the harder the struggle the greater the victory
so swallow your fears and thrive in the misery

when the moon dont shine and the sun dont rise
you gotta light your own match to get to the prize
when the storm wreaks havoc and you're drowning at sea
just picture that maybach and you drowning in money

nobody's worth the cost of your dreams
cuz in the end they're not who they seem
when you're on the rise they wanna see you fall
hoping you'll make the same mistakes as Saul

there's a lot on the line that you can't afford to resign
not now, not yet, not for a very long time
still a lot of people that you gotta prove wrong
a whole list of reasons for staying so strong
the number one catalyst for writing this song