Thank You For the Ride

forgive me i forgot, to thank you for the ride
but the trip of a lifetime left me empty inside
i was walking down a road with no end in sight
the signs were misleading in the black of the night

i got lost in the darkness,
without a map i felt hopeless
thumb to the street and desperation in my eyes
watching you stop was like watching a sunrise

you asked me where i wanted to go
"somewhere far from the life that i know"
as you shut the door behind me,
we began our life of dual secrecy

you took me through all the back roads of town
showing me the highest ups and the lowest downs
in moments of silence i would stop and wonder
how long you'd drive if the storm brought thunder

when the tank ran low, and the ride got slow
i felt a bitter ugliness that i tried not to show
when the cash ran out, and left us in a drought
i felt a paranoia that consumed me with doubt

i made you believe in my feigned apathy
but beneath the surface, i gave you all of me
so when you pulled over to rest for a while
my whole life fell apart in the most tragic style

we were parked outside a deserted garage
as i planned my escape, i got lost in the mirage
of a tangible freedom just beyond my reach
why the fuck can't i practice what i preach

without you I knew I'd suffer alone
I'm caught in a mess, completely thrown
but the era has passed and I've survived
times were tough, but my soul has thrived

it was hard to swallow the feelings of hate
but after months of regret, it was simply fate
the roughest moments were my saving grace
the only reason i can still show my face